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the ever-excruciating need to poeticize these heart palpitations
but can one really be that literate mid-effing-breakdown???
i am having an ANXIETY ATTACK or PANIC ATTACK can n e v e r tell the difference l m a o
he wishes he were dead, i wish to know when the hell that's gonna happen
i feel horrible but he is more so
you and me, its like comparing...fuck no one is coming to mind right now.
like comparing
had to grab a list of things
its like comparing Louis de Point du Lac from Interview With the Vampire, with Anakin Skywalker from You Know Fucking What
because sure. louis is fucked in the head. he's done horrific stuff that got people hurt. but in the grand scheme of things he really wasn't That bad and he was hurt. and reacting to the hurt that was inflicted upon him. and goddamnit he wasn't that bad.
but anakin skywalker. fuck, he gets you at first. his charm, his resolve, his status, his trauma, his entire sad boy routine. and you love him. you know that he just needs some guidance. and hell, so do you. so you bite. you feel like you know him and know that he would never do something so horrid and fucked up. and yeah, he makes mistakes. he fucks up. it upsets you, you feel your eyes narrowing at certain things, but you feel that because of what he had to go through there was NO way he would be capable of something so horrific. you thought you knew him inside-out without remembering a key facet of life that is: people change. i don't know. but he did, and the point is that you thought he was special and would never do shit like that. but then. he does something unspeakable. and you stand there in disbelief. he comes to you. he just killed an entire village. he is unstable, looking to you for comfort because he loves you. he dumps this news and you just have to sit there and absorb what the fuck just happened. well....at least Anakin admitted the whole truth to Padme of what the fuck he did, but a metaphor from the ramblings of a panicked man can stand to lack a complete 1:1 perfection. anyways. you are forced to try to believe that this wasn't as bad as it actually was because you went through hell together and have so much shared baggage that you cant just let go. you just allow all of the red flags to drain into a peach hue. its time to start planning the rest of your life together, after all. but then order 66 happens. he becomes a genocidal dictator. you know the fucking story. yeah. you literally DIE because you felt a pressure that you had to let shit be. and it didn't remain been. boom. ur fuckin dead.
and yeah
i'm not actually dead
but it also killed me
so you see
those characters are on different levels by MILES morality-wise.
but despite my logical understanding of this
i still can't help but compare how they are both victims. goddammit.
i dont eve know what the fuck this is. was a poem. now a vent. free-forming this bitch. at least my heart rate lowered to normal again. still fucked though. and hey. maybe i am a bit literate. lol. who fuckin knew
but can one really be that literate mid-effing-breakdown???
i am having an ANXIETY ATTACK or PANIC ATTACK can n e v e r tell the difference l m a o
he wishes he were dead, i wish to know when the hell that's gonna happen
i feel horrible but he is more so
you and me, its like comparing...fuck no one is coming to mind right now.
like comparing
had to grab a list of things
its like comparing Louis de Point du Lac from Interview With the Vampire, with Anakin Skywalker from You Know Fucking What
because sure. louis is fucked in the head. he's done horrific stuff that got people hurt. but in the grand scheme of things he really wasn't That bad and he was hurt. and reacting to the hurt that was inflicted upon him. and goddamnit he wasn't that bad.
but anakin skywalker. fuck, he gets you at first. his charm, his resolve, his status, his trauma, his entire sad boy routine. and you love him. you know that he just needs some guidance. and hell, so do you. so you bite. you feel like you know him and know that he would never do something so horrid and fucked up. and yeah, he makes mistakes. he fucks up. it upsets you, you feel your eyes narrowing at certain things, but you feel that because of what he had to go through there was NO way he would be capable of something so horrific. you thought you knew him inside-out without remembering a key facet of life that is: people change. i don't know. but he did, and the point is that you thought he was special and would never do shit like that. but then. he does something unspeakable. and you stand there in disbelief. he comes to you. he just killed an entire village. he is unstable, looking to you for comfort because he loves you. he dumps this news and you just have to sit there and absorb what the fuck just happened. well....at least Anakin admitted the whole truth to Padme of what the fuck he did, but a metaphor from the ramblings of a panicked man can stand to lack a complete 1:1 perfection. anyways. you are forced to try to believe that this wasn't as bad as it actually was because you went through hell together and have so much shared baggage that you cant just let go. you just allow all of the red flags to drain into a peach hue. its time to start planning the rest of your life together, after all. but then order 66 happens. he becomes a genocidal dictator. you know the fucking story. yeah. you literally DIE because you felt a pressure that you had to let shit be. and it didn't remain been. boom. ur fuckin dead.
and yeah
i'm not actually dead
but it also killed me
so you see
those characters are on different levels by MILES morality-wise.
but despite my logical understanding of this
i still can't help but compare how they are both victims. goddammit.
i dont eve know what the fuck this is. was a poem. now a vent. free-forming this bitch. at least my heart rate lowered to normal again. still fucked though. and hey. maybe i am a bit literate. lol. who fuckin knew
